Of days to come

roses wither

2007-12-20T17:51:00.000-08:00

a rose's worth and beauty withers, if not tended to - just like humans.

i dont care anymore. life sucks. i dont care what happens now,i feel like i want my life taken away... /sigh

a good day ends up as a retarded day

2007-11-17T01:30:00.000-08:00

the day started off with a good feeling.i started cramming for exams and yeah was talking to many people as usual to help them in their problems.which was going well as usual. and as well as talking to an old friend.someone who hated me. memories of him badmouthing me was painful, but we were talking again and it went pretty well. and i thought.ok todays a good day.

but it came crashing down.i heard the line "i hate you" three times today. all for different reasons. well the knife loves me O.o lol. i havnt taken to the knife yet.but it seems that its coming closer. well just an emo person rambling.

i think i have depression .swt

2007-11-11T23:46:00.000-08:00

if signs of depression include eating more and sleeping and being antisocial etc or smth like that.. i think i have depression =.= /swt

theres only a tiny handbit of people helping me to cope with it unknowingly. and one special person who goes to lengths to make me happy :X

i want to thank that special person.

*learning how to cope ._.''*

what are friends?

2007-11-11T23:02:00.000-08:00

Friends to most people mean that they'll always be there for you. If that is true, does it mean that my choices of friends are limited? Even as casual friends, I don't know. What then are friends when they and you reach the same boat and struggle together. Would they push you off the boat in order to save themselves? That would most likely happen. Unless your friendship is bonded so deeply, that one is able to sacrifice themself for the other.

"Loyalty means nothing unless it has at its heart the absolute principle of self-sacrifice. " Woodrow Wilson

If that what it is, does it mean that friends are just a figment of imagination for me? If friends sit down together, talking about how dumb they were when they were like e.g. taking an IQ test and comparing their IQ, knowing that someone who is beside them obviously has a lower IQ (simple meaning-dumb) If friends were like that, bagging their own friends. Then what exactly is friends.

If a friend is someone who can stay by you and accept you for who you are, what then is a best friend? Will there be no such thing as a best friend for me?

My experiences with friends
- Friends who push you off the boat to save themselves
- Friends who dump their joy and burdens on you and don't listen to your burdens
- Friends who calls you a bitch for trying to understand their situation
- Friends who only know how to bag(tease) you
- Friends who would dump you whenever a better sounding person comes by to talk to

In all honesty, I might have done those by accident too. But I do try and not do any of the things I have listed above. Friends mean the world to me, and if my loyalty for them is as huge as sacrificing myself, does that mean I have no friends because none of them have the principle of sacrifice for me.... Well, maybe I do, but they are out of reach for me to reach =.= /swt

cheesy pick up lines

2007-10-06T03:34:00.000-07:00

these cheesy pick up lines posted here are for my entertainment GG :X took em off candyro.forums

You must be the reason for global warming because you’re hot.

My love for yous like having to take a really bad shit. I just can't hold it in.

Can I take your picture, because I want to show Santa Claus want I want for Christmas

Do you have a Bandaid? Cuz I just scraped my knee falling for you.

hate math..

2007-10-05T22:21:00.000-07:00

ugh......damn maths =.= why cant i be an asian who can do math?~?!? !@#@! i cant do maths even if my life depended on it =.= now my future is screwed!@#@! why did people have to invent math anwyay =.= ugh...

chocolate pleaseee =.= korean translation-chukulae.... =.=....

UGHHHHHHHH..damnation....

it takes courage for someone to suicide and yet greater courage for someone to live to "battle" life..

ugh...this sucks..

ew

2007-10-04T22:28:00.001-07:00

eww.....parents-.- sometimes u cant stand them..at alll..

oh bloody hell

2007-09-11T03:32:00.000-07:00

oh heck crap =.= i feel like running away from home again.dad blames me for stuff.mum does too..so does sibling =.=...ugh.so stressed...where are friends when u need them =.= sigh..friends who are busy and want to help but they cant..and friends who simply cbfed helping...sigh...

RAWR

2007-09-07T06:05:00.001-07:00

iono..but this post is for a picture i wanted to post on a forum..so bleh.. xD first to get all cats GG

retarded..

2007-09-06T00:39:00.001-07:00

a candle owns this blog and i need to remind myself that it is a ranting blog and i will never post anymore essays watsoever.BLAHH..

GUILD CHIBIZORR

2007-09-03T22:51:00.001-07:00

CHIBIZORS RAWKK XD

RAWRRRRRRRR..

ddammittt..

2007-09-03T22:02:00.000-07:00

A CANDLE OWNS THIS BLOG DAMMIT

*BLEEEEEEEEEEEEEP T_T

for some reasonn

2007-08-01T04:58:00.000-07:00

for some reason.i decided to put on a post..again.for thanking the many people who have been in and out of my life who made my life better and happier i guess.. and when im trying to get over all problems in whatever stage in my life..some random people can just make the day happier ^^

yeah.thanking the normal everyday people i meet in my life..as usual.for u make the day seem usual as ever xD...
and to some people who have nicknames xD that i know by..for randomly making life wierd O.o xD
to people i meet on and off randomly for making the day interesting xD

something here that i randomly wrote to share with everyone, and to convey my thanks too as well..

"Fragments of memories
Broken, scattered and lost
The world came crashing down on me
And I didn't know who I was

My thoughts, feelings and emotions
Didn't come to me naturally
I couldn't smile or cry like others did
Who was I meant to be?

So what was my reason for living?
To live life to the full?To make memorries?To search for the meaning of life?
My memories, thoughts and emotions could be just fabricated or computerized,
just like a script on a play
All these I couldn't comprehend, but all I know was that you showed me a little happiness and that gave me the courage to see that I felt normal emotions that people have
And for all that, I just wanted to say "thank you" and it made me feel happier to be alive"

thats for me..and i guess its an encouragement for others as well.to know that u arent alone when there are problems.and yeah.dedicating this to everyone and yeahh i just want u all to know that i love you all for being who you all are and thanks ^^ be yourself and take care xD

ENGERISH ESSAY

2007-07-10T19:46:00.000-07:00

engerish essay.lol.have fun XD

In the novel “I’m not scared’ by Niccolo Ammaniti, Michele faces numerous challenges to his conscience. Despite the continual treachery by his friends and family, Michele never stops trusting in human goodness. One of the several points that are in support of this argument is the betrayal of his father, Pino, when he found out that his father is in league with Filippo’s kidnappers. Secondly, Michele’s trust was betrayed by a close friend, Salvatore, for a driving lesson. And finally, Skull is shown to have betrayed Michele’s expectations.

Michele faces a moral dilemma between his father and Filippo-his father is one of the criminals who kidnapped Filippo. However, this does not cause Michele to lose heart-rather, Michele now brings hope to Filippo. This is symbolic as Michele chose to trust in humanity rather than to accept the darkness in the human heart. Michele disobeys his father to help Filippo. He tells Filippo that his mum still cared for him. “Um…Your mother says she loves you.” [Michele. pg 108] He also helps Filippo to clean himself up and to bring him out of the hole for a while. [pg 108, 112] “I’ll be back tomorrow” [Michele. pg 113] He continues to show goodness there by keeping Filippo from being lonely. He knows that kidnapping is wrong, and his continued efforts to help Filippo, shows Michele’s belief in human goodness. Moreover, by making his choice of helping Filippo, and his sacrifice by getting shot by his father represents Michele’s ideal was true- that humanity is not corrupt (human goodness), and can sacrifice themselves at will.

Michele faces another setback; Salvatore breaks his trust. He tells Felice about Michele’s secret concerning Filippo for a driving lesson. Salvatore Scardaccione “sold” [pg 147] Michele’s secret for a driving lesson despite the pact of eternal friendship they had vowed together. [pg 148] Michele is now being compared with the “older” people (Salvatore) “Salvatore and I were the same age, but to me he seemed older.”[pg 131] – The link with age and corruption-from Skull to Michele’s father. The author also attempts to show Michele’s coming of age with Salvatore’s- Michele describes Salvatore as “seemingly older”, which would signify the corruption in Salvatore. This is made clearer when Salvatore gives a line: “I’m not interested in loonies in holes.’ [Salvatore. pg 135] This contrasts with Michele’s pure childhood innocence, as Michele still cares about Filippo. Despite his betrayal, Michele still continues to believe in human goodness as he still keeps his vow to Salvatore and talks to him, and even made room for him while they were playing a game with the other children. [pg 171] With this, Niccolo Ammaniti shows Michele’s innocent trust in goodness present in human hearts.

Michele’s expectation of others is again betrayed when Skull asks for an unreasonable forfeit from Barbara twice-to show them her private parts. “Either show us your tits or get lost”. [Skull. pg 10] “This time you’re going to show us your slit” [Skull. pg 19] Michele is shocked by this. “We froze, as if a wind from the North Pole had suddenly blown into the valley.” [Michele. pg 19]-and thus is betrayed by Skull. From Michele’s view, the forfeit Skull had given was something “dirty”-something morally wrong and unnecessarily harsh. [pg 19] Michele chooses to save Barbara from the second forfeit by having a second vote after struggling with his inner self, in order to stop Skull’s revenge, even if it means taking the punishment himself.

In conclusion, the novel “I’m not scared” by Niccolo Ammaniti presents the character Michele. Though the various betrayals he had gone through made by his close friends and family, Michele is still shown to be unwavering in his faith for the goodness within human hearts.

o.o once again T.T

2007-05-19T23:39:00.000-07:00

once again.ive realised.how empty words can be sometimes -.-'' its a sad sad thing =.=''

quote of the day O.o -->> bored ><

2007-05-18T01:30:00.000-07:00

i am bored.so i decided to put quote of the day O.o for me anyway O.O

"Love is the only way to grasp another human being in the innermost core of his personality." Victor Frankl

noww.thats interesting..but i guess its true.no one can live without love, and so yeahh O.o i guess thats the reason why we all cannot live without love O.o

i forgot.i lost my thoughts O.o shall stop here O.O

history work O.o what i did for my essay

2007-05-16T23:41:00.000-07:00

my damned long essay which took me 7 essays.never read it unless ure forced to =.= freakin 2 pages with bibliography

Should the USA have dropped bombs on Japan?

USA should not have dropped bombs on Japan. Several points can be raised. Firstly, the massive numbers of casualties who suffered from the bombing which proved to be the first of it’s kind in the recorded history in the world. 1Secondly, the negative long-term effects that the atomic bomb had on the survivors which proved to be as devastating as the casualties. Lastly, there was other ways of victory of USA, which might have proved to be just as effective, and without such casualties.

There were massive casualties from the bombing. The bombs, named “Fat Man” and “Little Boy” were dropped by the “B-29 superfortress Enola Gay” plane.2, 3, 4 This was the first occasion in the history of the world where the biggest numbers of death have been counted from this singular attack, although this counts both Hiroshima and Nagasaki. What makes this significant is that these two bombs, killed about 170, 000 people who were non-combatants.5, 6The bombing on Hiroshima and Nagasaki had simply just killed more civilians without any second thought to the number of casualties. This is the first reason Hiroshima and Nagasaki should not have been bombed- they were not full military sites, but a city filled with people.

The negative long-term effects have proved and are proving to be deadly. The horrible burns that the survivors had, due to the lack any proper medical attention, which therefore, could not be cured, were some of the after-effects of the bomb.7,8 The radiation sickness is still around, after 50 years, till even to this day, and is expecting to last for generations. For example, sicknesses like radiation-induced cancers, cataracts and leukemia, which was first noted by Japanese physician, Gensaku Oho, is still around to this day. 9,10 Without the bombing on Hiroshima and Nagasaki, these sicknesses would not have infected many people in Japan during that time. Another long term effect is the structural damage that the bomb caused. It had destroyed both Hiroshima and Nagasaki which had to be cleared and rebuilt from scratch. Hence, the bombing also caused the continual damage of the landscape, other than doing direct damage to Japan.11

USA did not necessarily need to choose Hiroshima and Nagasaki as their bombing site. USA had other locations, such as a wasteland, a less populated area, or a military target.12,13 By doing so, less casualties and sufferings with the same impact would have been attained, since the detonation of the bomb threatens further action, which acts as a incentive for Japan to surrender. However, USA, deliberately choosing Hiroshima and Nagasaki, did so to “psychologically impact” the Japanese with the sheer number of deaths which was a higher priority than the fact that Hiroshima and Nagasaki had insignificant military depots. 14,15 A far-reaching consequence also came out of this “psychological impact”, which resulted in the Arms Race in 194516.This shows that the USA’s choice site for bombing was unnecessary.

Those who support the bombing of Hiroshima and Nagasaki assert that the Japanese had waged “total war”, and had employed most of their population, thus no one was innocent. But it also can be argued that those working in the factories were non-combatants, even if they were involved in the war effort, they were un-enlisted to the army itself, and did not have the sufficient means and ways to protect themselves, for example, being able to drive a tank to shoot down a plane that is getting ready to drop a bomb. 17Another assertion is that the long-term effects could be justified, in that since the war was ended swiftly, and less colonized people suffered from Japanese exploitation as well as the possible lives lost from soldiers in other parts of the world like Java, where four million to ten million people were forced to labor as slaves18. The speedy end of the war could have saved lives which were lost. But would that be true? It is only potential lives, and whether if it would be actually saved lives in reality would be different. 19,20 However, the bombing of the wasteland would weaken the impact of the message sent by USA, and hence, would not have caused the Japanese to retreat from the war.21 In opposition, this argument can be established; that Hiroshima and Nagasaki was targeted with the intention of terrifying the Japanese into submission, which is no different from terrorism.22 Moreover, as the saying goes: “Political power grows out of the barrel of a gun.”23 this bombing allowed the US to gain a significant say in post-war negotiations which may have been part of the factors for choosing the bombsite. 24Therefore, USA should not have dropped the atomic bomb on Hiroshima and Nagasaki.
To summarize, USA should not have dropped the atomic bomb on Hiroshima and Nagasaki as many negative effects can be seen from it. Hundreds of thousands of lives were lost, and their suffering was passed down from generation to generation. And more, the deliberate intention to harm the non-combatants and to scare the Japanese, led to the poor choosing of bombsites. Although the US Army may have had logical reasons to attack Hiroshima and Nagasaki, the moral implications of such attack outweighs its strategic benefits by far.

Bibliography
1 Based on a discussion with Dong Yun.K, 15th May 2007
2 Based on a discussion with Vilho.J, 11th May 2007
3 http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Atomic_bombings_of_Hiroshima_and_Nagasaki, 13th May 2007
4 http://campus.udayton.edu/~hume/A-Bomb/abomb.htm, 12th May 2007
5 http://www.artsci.wustl.edu/~copeland/atomicbomb.html , 14th May 2007
6 Class notes, 13th May 2007
7 Hiroshima Clickview, 11th May 2007
8 http://www.artsci.wustl.edu/~copeland/atomicbomb.html, 14th May 2007
9 http://www.artsci.wustl.edu/~copeland/atomicbomb.html, 14th May 2007
10 http://mothra.rerf.or.jp/ENG/A-bomb/History/Damages.html, 15th May 2007
11 Class notes, 10th May 2007
12 Based on a discussion with Dong Yun.K 12th May 2007
13 Class notes, 13th May 2007
14 Based on a discussion with Dong Yun.K 12th May 2007
15 http://www.dannen.com/decision/targets.html#E, 16th May 2007
16 Class notes, 13th May 2007
17 Based on a discussion with Chris.C, Dong Yun.K and Benjamin.T, 13th May 2007
18 http://lcweb2.loc.gov/cgi-bin/query/r?frd/cstdy:@field(DOCID+id0029), 16th May 2007
19 Class notes, 12th May 2007
20 Based on a discussion with Dong Yun.K, 14th May 2007
21Based on a discussion with Chris.C and Dong Yun.K, 13th May 2007
22 Based on a discussion with Dong Yun.K and Mr Nicastro, 16th May 2007
23 Mao Zedong, http://en.wikiquote.org/wiki/Power, 13th May 2007
24 Based on a discussion with Dong Yun.K, 15th May 2007

hmmm

2007-05-12T21:02:00.000-07:00

once again.im back for the moment.im sick atm.so i wont be blogging much O.o well.homework as usual has piled up, and not having any time.to do random stuff.many things again have once happened.prolly for the worse.O.o ive been in a stoned state for a while.and might prolly be again O.o so homework.makes it worse.makes me think too much--using the brain.LOL.meh,vague posts.but what can i doO.O i cant think properly.and jotting down thoughts sometimes is too troublesome >< anyways.yeah.ill stop here for now..

bbbbboooorrreeedddd

2007-04-26T02:23:00.000-07:00

amazingly im bored O.o test week.and homework.O.o etcetc.and im bored O.o oh my.i should study.LOL
hmm.ystd was anzac day.stayed home.hmm.sleep.and OOOHH.i overslept today /sob. sadcase. hmm.iono...listening to Rolling Star from Bleachh..
and iono.JELLo.O.o a friend.LOL.suggested i write about jello O.o ah wells.too bored.cant think LOL.will blog more lame stuff soon =.=''

homework

2007-04-20T22:21:00.000-07:00

hello..work work work.what else can i say.i lost my work.so work extra.sigh...cant blog much..too much work.shall update more.SHORT BLOG.WEEE.roflmao.

oh my.finally.lol

2007-04-17T20:46:00.000-07:00

oh myyy.FINALLY.lol.after 4 months of not blogging, I have decided to return to blogging and who knows i might be inconsistent in blogging.. >< what made me stop blogging this 4 months? well.too much homework, a new found online game, and too lazy to jot down my thoughts.lol.but anyways.im back for the moment.hopefully and yeahh..

well.first up.since im back.hello to all of u who somehow happens to read this now.HAHA. and a very big note: do homework first.lol. i have started to try to make that my habit.and its been hard.and cos homework has been too harsh.ive started stressing.LOL.typical for someone in school..yeah.and i keep forgetting what thoughts i have--moral--dont drink too much soft drink--sodium in there makes u get memory loss.AHHA..well other than that.its been alrite.

hmm.what else is there too say?for the moment..theres so much things to say.and dont know where to start..hmm.well.went to a friends party and it was really good.XD laser shooting game--weee... our group owned all although everyone thought we were gonna lose.haha.yeah.and i have been up to some random stuff. met new people.from school and online game.its pretty nice to know there might be someone out there suffering the same fate as u XD--suffering in homework.haha. and sometimes.its easier to speak to them about your problems like.for school and etcetc.as long as its not personal.XD.for me anyway.cos they also might share the same feelings as you.and u know that youre not alone XD.and best of all.they dont really know u?and so u can rant your heart outO.o oh my.i dont do that if thats what ure thinking.HAHA.i like keeping to myself.XD.online games are both good and bad.but i guess.its good for me if i ration my gaming time..haha..well times running out for me.because i have been on the library computer.and yeah.HAHA.time limit.hate that phrase.lol.but anyways.i hope to update more and give me a buzz somewhere.like on comments to remind me to blogg XD.cos i might turn up to be too lazy and might not blog.HAHA..so yeah.if u want me to blog, go ahead and give me a reminder..ehehXD

mm..been a while..

2006-12-16T03:40:00.000-08:00

Its been a while since i blogged..and im currently in sg..so to update..lol. ><><..lol.goodness.. and i am currently missing my talking buddy nikko ><><><..hope he gets a comp to email or talk to me..lol.and nikko.if u so happen to see and read this blog..im missing u.lol. ><

and one last thing..goodness!! the comps here are crap..compared to the one i use ><

blogging..mm

2006-11-25T01:14:00.000-08:00

lol.many things happened between the last blog entry and this one..but i found out one thing..i cant be stuffed writing in much here anymore..cos it takes too much time.lol..but i still will..once in a while ><..lol

envyro

2006-11-11T19:18:00.000-08:00

been playing envy ro..very interesting..lol..had interesting times..holy and flame helped me to become a actual knight..so i would like to thank them..esp holy alot..lol..i am like..indebted to him..lol..shall type more later..busy..heh

blogging..

2006-11-09T00:19:00.000-08:00

blogging after a while..so many things happened during this time.. our dear friend B has a fan club now..consisting of *nicknames* leech...TDB...and parker..and i wonder who else..
i have earned the nickname chibi in the group im in..no idea why..lol..mebbe cos everyone says im the crazy midget in the group..lol..paul got the nick kozo..and shuje..shu-chan..lol..RO is getting boring..and Ben and Suqi..hurry up and finish ur O'levels..lol..cant remember wad else to blog..other than "exams" are coming soon..

Mark u idiot..spike up ur hair...look so wierd..lol..like pineapple head.. -_''
Paul..when are we going to go to Chadstone?lol..and when can u go on RO to train with me?lol..

missing everyone in sg duh..lol..holidays are coming soon...obstacles in the way :'(.."exams".lol..still got the stupid occupational work and safety seminar and test..but i miss out on swimming sports..hehe..next year..study for L plate..and get part-time job..i hope..lol..

goodness..

2006-11-06T02:33:00.000-08:00

i feel retarded..angry..annoyed..very retarded..and dead..
dunno wad else to say...

mm..pe..mm..cant remember..

2006-11-01T01:48:00.000-08:00

people in our sports class get injured regularly..no idea why..lol...mm..someone kicked a ball and it smashed a window in a classroom during recess...tt wasnt my class..but anyway..mm..mm..was playing soccer for pe..and someone kicked the ball and it hit of the side of my chest full on..oww..lol..kai got it as well..but i think it wasnt as bad as mine..cos he's a guy..lol..my hand went numb after a while as well..charlie..dunno how he did it..but he apparently kicked the goal post accidently i think..and i think he killed his ankle..lol..
P didnt come to school today..i guess tts alrite....mm..todays debate in class was outrageous..lol..as in..the people were making points which was really retarded..lol....somehow sat with shu-chan more today..dunno y..mebbe P wasnt in sch...tts why..apparently Mr Croft was saying how IT was looking at me with jealousy or smth..after class..cos i asked him why during class he said shu and candel etcetc...shant say more about the etcetc..lol..and cos shu asked me to sit next to him..mm...cant remember wad else to say for that topic..mm..was playing big 2 during lunch..and it was so funny..shu was like saying..i can see your cards..thro ur glasses...and later when i took off my glasses..it was my cornea..lol!! but i owned him in big 2 anyway..and i was laughing so much..and cos when it was a facedown with shu and i..and i had my last card..i said boom.and he called me a druggy..lol..Mr Croft said i look like a turtle without my glasses -_''....Mr Croft..look out for ur back..lol!!..mm..i guess tts all for today.

idiots..hwk..etc

2006-10-31T02:21:00.000-08:00

i felt i was surrounded by idiots while talking on msn today...dun ask me wad happened..lol..

and after going to joys house tmr..i so promise you..i will never play go again...i suck at it..lol..

tons of hwk to finish..

cant remember wad i wanted to say..

um...happy halloween?? tts one i guess...

some wierd thing happened today..esp with IT and shuje and me...and i wonder why...--nudge paul and perri...

cant remember..tts all for now i guess..

someone who......i dislike you..

2006-10-26T02:08:00.000-07:00

I AM CRAP AT PLAYING GO. FULLSTOP...im fine with it..anyway..its not the point...

someone who...underestimates me....i dislike you...
someone who..annoys me..i also dislike you..
someone who...are like a spoilt brat..i dislike you..
someone who...betrays my trust..i dislike you..

and if you are one of those people..and u still think ure in my good books.. u are retarded..permenantly..

btw..when i say dislike..i mean dislike..and for the person at the previous post..i still dislike you..
i like you better when u kept your mouth shut--quote from danetta :)
and for that same person..who said someone else is a spoilt brat..u 2..are one...

shall stop here...

potential or talent?

2006-10-25T05:09:00.000-07:00

some people told me that i had potential in drawing anime..some other people told me i have a talent in drawing anime..apparently the people who told me i had potential told me i couldnt draw that well becuase the face wasnt pointy enough..and that some other proportions were "crappy" as well...well...i had the help of a picture while drawing..and it looked exactly the same to me..and so why are u telling me this proportion crap?lol..sry..im being harsh here...if u told me my proportion was crap..wont u be telling the same to the drawer then? but anyways..im confused now...wad does potential and talent mean to me?
dictionary.com:
potential: capable of being or becoming
talent: a special natural ability or aptitude
does that mean here..if i practice my potential, it will become a talent? but if talents are given by God..altho u have to practice to be perfect..wouldnt it mean it would be a level higher than potential..like...in the middle..--mm..like..u have the talent to do it..but u have to practice..is that then the same as potential??
arrgghh..head hurts..cant think anymore...shall retardedly work harder i guess..--fizzled mind..arrgghh...

blind2

2006-10-25T04:51:00.000-07:00

lol..recovered sight..was frantically rushing thro scanning manga and editing it into my com..3 volumes..outrages!! it took me like 2 days to finish just 3 volumes..o wells..head hurts..too much scanning too much pages--as in looking thro..lol..
people in school starting to play go..mm..lol..tired...too much multitasking...
math test tmr...m... and my brains too fizzled..cant remeber wad i wanted to say..lol..shall type it up when i remember... -_''

btw..mark bro..forgive and forget :) cheer up yeah..altho it was at the other person...and i want you to noe, my bro..that im there for you..as a sis..lol..so yeah..feel free to share :) *hahaha..cant believe i wrote this..**mark..u better be happy if u do read this now..hahaha*

became "blind'

2006-10-24T03:42:00.000-07:00

became sorta blind today..rushing tho the post..cos busy.--scanning manga into the com __'' anyways..

shall leave the rest to next post...lol..

dislike..and stolen friend

2006-10-23T02:16:00.000-07:00

i am going to say that im starting to dislike you..for some reasons..i don't know why..i doubt you even know this...i doubt you would even be reading this..one reason why i start to dislike you because you have very drastic mood swings which somehow annoy me alot.. mmm..

one of my "dear" friends..i have to say..u used to be one of my dear friends here.. until you were "stolen" by a guy and now talk less to me/our group rather...it feels wierd just having our group just being together..cos u were "stolen" by a guy and u talk with him..therefore..hanging out less with us.. i don't mind u being with him..but u cut down on the time when you spend with us which is sad in a way..i feel you drifting apart from our group...i cant be stuffed now really..cos u obviously like his company..and dont mind being with him than us.. u say that we are teasing you being with that guy..but in reality..its a fact..u are being with him like..lets say...90% of ur school day..in school anyway.and who knows..mebbe more cos u talk to him on msn.. so yeah...if you like being with him..i can't be stuffed getting you back cos u don't even have a spark of determination of at least spending more time with us...

mood: sarcastic and a little annoyed..
listening to: free as a bird~dedicated to t (echizen ryoma's character song)

5 more weeks..

2006-10-21T21:27:00.000-07:00

its 5 more weeks before the awaited week..melbourne cup is 2 weeks ard the corner...nothing much happening here..been slacking...searching and downloading songs..and finally homework..watching ouran high...etcetc...
being bored..so labelling all what i have been doin...trying to revive glenny manga forums..but no one ever goes there in the first place now..so its like..sad...anyone wanna join in?its like mostly for artworks..but yeah..would be good if people joined in XD...
hoping to crash in someone's house..who's house should we go to would be the problem.. -_'' VCE starts next year for me..so i would have to study hard.m..that reminds me..i need to send in my resume for work experience..it would be good if i could go into a mangaka studio or smth..bt that would never happen i guess.becuase here doesnt have any studios like that..lol.. *i reckon translating manga's fun tho XD*
talked to brian these few days..interesting talk we had...and then...talked to many others as well..saw Daniel on sat..lol..
i'd wish they allow us to upload files here..but they don't...

mood: bored..
listening to: -Viva Rock by orange range.. (naruto's 5th closing i think)
- The world by nightmare.. (opening song for death note..)
others: just blogging.. -_''

boredom..just posting up drawings..

2006-10-21T02:19:00.000-07:00

lol..drawings..

a pic i did of kakashi..iruka..sasuke..naruto..sakura..

if u think ure locked up..trust betrayed?

2006-10-19T03:21:00.000-07:00

a friend was confiding in me today that someone said something bad about her that triggered memories and is starting to be locked up again. she says that being locked up is the only defense she can have..
my rant--again..lol : if you think that being locked up is your only defense..and not talking..trying to become mute..then what about your friends?are u going to let them down after years they have been friends with you?and that you think that your friends are going to be happy after that? can't u find another way then?if thats the only way you have and you don't want to search for a better solution, and then u leave it like that, then the only thing i can say to you..have fun being locked up then..if you cbs finding another way to retaliate and get out of the fix ure in.at least try and search for the answer to retaliate...ask the person themselves why they would say that..and if they have ever been in your shoes? anways..ill leave it up to you. becuase you wouldnt be happy if i tried to interfere much in your affairs anyway. and i hope that my trust in you wouldn't be betrayed..unless you really wanna betray it and become "mute"...

wierdness.......bt its not with me...lol

2006-10-18T02:02:00.000-07:00

I was talking to a friend today and he told me that he likes this math teacher....they are like 10 yrs apart..and i asked him why he liked her..and his response was that they both get along very well, and he seems to get special treatment from her..and if he doesnt tell her how he feels, he cant sleep at night...bt he he smsed her alr..-_''..ok..time for my ranting now..and if u jus happen to see this..im sorry..but i cant help but rant..
first things first..do u actually know she's taken?!?!she's like soooo much older than u..secondly..u think that she giving u special treatment and making u her favourite student has a chance of her liking you??and are you sure that ure no mistaking ur crush/love for admiration and respect!?!?and if you both getting along very well leads u to liking her saying that that is one of the reasons that u like her..then u might as well find someone else..cos alot of people can get along with u...anyways..

back from camp..pretty happy :) survived it..sprained my ankle on first day tho..and for the next day..estimating..would be ard 10km..10km with a sprained ankle..lol..amazing..the guys from duke of ed were like talking about me the whole trip becuase i "pwned" fernando.. -_'' and they were asking me to show them some stuff i knew..like i pressed sumir's back-pressure point and did a headlock and it hurt like hell for him even tho he does karate..lol..*people talking about me..no wonder i was sneezing quite a lot..lol!!*mr mckinnon and ashley who does animal sci in melb uni came..so it was interesting to talk to ashley..mr mckinnon skipped class!!lol.. anyways..shall stop for now..busy..lol..

yr 12 cosplay..

2006-10-16T01:23:00.000-07:00

Hm..there was yr 12 muck up day today(dress up day) and i was walking around with joy and beck who i think ditched me today..lol.. from bleach..saw 2 hitsugaya taichous, 1 tousen taichou, 1 aizen taichou, a quincy, and from naruto, saw a kiba(no akamaru..lol)..and from death note, L!!lol..and it's that sasuke hairstyle dude who dressed up as him XD..(so kawaii..lol)

camps tommorrow...-_'' *i will be dead when i come back..so dun expect any updates for like a week or so..lol!~!*

btw..lol! that reminded me..i "bullied?" a guy today :'( cos zandra was trying to twist fernando's hand back to the back..and it didn't hurt for fernando and shane was telling zandra it wasn't the right way to do it..and zandra was asking how to do the twist properly..and i was like..can i use fernando as a guinea pig to show zandra? and he was like..ok...and shane was like..go for it..lol.. and i did it--twist the hand back to the back..and fernando was like bending over with the hand because it hurt..and he was like..owwww...and im like oops..sorry(i didnt use my full force when twisting his hand back to the back..)..but i didnt noe if fernando heard me..but anyways..im sorry fernando..lol... *main note to myself..use less force then the less force i used on fernando if i have to do it to him again, not that i would do it again anyway..lol* and shane was like..give me a high 5..good work..you owned(pwned) fernando and im like.. -_ '' .... anyways.. :'( dun use a lot of force for people that i dont noe if theyre strong enough to withstand pain..--''..lol!
*florian!! it's all your fault..lol..jkjk..dun take it too hard :) * i thank my "master" florian for teaching me self defense..lol*..anyways..off i go..

bleach..

2006-10-08T05:21:00.000-07:00

was talking to thomas today..and we were talking about exams i think..LOL..and stuff..
quote from thomas: mole represents chem, loci - e maths, hitler - history, newton - physics, hecate - literature..*lol*
he also had his dp- ichigo..lol..and he told me that he watched 25 eps in a day during exam period..*LOL!!!* tsk tsk thomas..watching during exam period..lol*..was hooked and later..got off the hook..lol.. that reminds me..sci and math test tmr.. -_'' and duke of ed camp next week :'( NOOOOO!!!..o wells..LOL..thomas..good luck for exams..esp when u really want to watch bleach..haha..but wed is last day..bt good luck anyway..haha..and of cos good luck to all people taking exams..like..jeremiah..josiah..huiwen..weifeng..suqi..ben..fhairil??lynette..lol..esp those O'levels...work hard guys..and get good marks..lol..
gtg..off to study :'( ..lol..the cranium..sternum..humerus..tibia..patella...ribs..pelvis..sacrum.. gastrocneminus..deltoids..etcetc..for bones...for CNS(central nervous system).the neuron..axon..dendrite..for circulatory..superior vena cava..right and left atrium, ventricles..etcetc..and tons more.haiz...and math!! geometry..mm..lol..

IT..

2006-10-06T00:13:00.000-07:00

Tests have been postponed to mon..Had roll duty today and it was interesting. Hm..a few days ago, we had english..and Paul got out of his seat to sit next to Manuela to chat with her..and since I was standing and finally found a seat..*lol* i sat down..the person sitting next to me was Shuje..lol..and IT was there..i think IT couldn't handle it and said to me..you are ticklish arent u..and she started tickling me.bt as usual..the me..wasnt that ticklish..so didnt succumb to her tickling..and Shuje went: Stop bugging her... *lol* i think IT was very furious and jealous..lol..her nick put: status: as bad as can be *lol..yeah rite* IT has roll duty on mon.so i assume Shuje would be very happy..lol..Mm..ms slifirski came back to school with her baby today..didnt get to talk much to her because i had roll duty.. :'( ms slifirski asked for me in class as well..so I was happy she remembered me..hehe..cause to her..im like the quite yet cheeky type..lol
was reading bleach manga and rukia's zanpaktou was soo cool :) shes still my ever favourite character..lol..o wells..should go off now..dinner and then caregroups gonna start..mm..

group study

2006-10-03T03:19:00.000-07:00

Had group study with Shuje, Katt today..lol..it was interesting..saw kai, alex, charlie, mark in the library as well.. overall i think study group today was alrite..lol..and then...went home..slept..and then..i seriously forgot wad happened the last few days..only thing i can remember: math and sci test on same day..math--geometry..and sci--human body and cells.. -_''
shall blog when i remeber..lol.!!

personal survey...

2006-09-29T05:36:00.000-07:00

my personal survey: your friend is getting beat up..u...
1) run away to find help
2) bash the people there to save ur friend first..
which one would you choose?

haiz....

kai: 1
mark: 2 (as expected...)
katt: 2 (not expected..lol..amazing..)
helena: 2 (love ya.. XD..hehe..take care yeah??)(she's a very brave warrior XD)
michelle lee: 1
spencer: 2 but 1 if theres many people bashing the person up..
joy chin: 2 (wahh..lol..brave..hehe..)
fiona cheng: 2 *LOL!!ROFL!!can't believe it..lol..ROFL..* but 1 if theres many people bashing the person up..
shuje: 2 (shuje to fiona cheng: the only thing u'd do was run away and cower, the only thing u culd take down was the things falling from ur locker) *lol*

haiz..

last day of hols..

2006-09-28T05:58:00.000-07:00

todays the last day of the weekday hols..and after the weekend school will reopen :(.. well..good side of it is that i've finished all my holiday hwk assignments..lol..bad sides are tests..esp math and sci -_-''.. no fair..hols was soo fun... was watching genshiken and hi no tori over the hols..hi no tori became boring after a few eps..and genshiken reeked of otakuness..lol..bt its pretty funny..
mm..i wanna thank daniel and isabelle for helping me out in music x_x..lol..tnks..wahaha...i would be dead for music if it weren't for them..i hope i wasn't annoying them tho..hehe..
next duke of ed is oct 17-18...dun wanna go..leeches again.. -_'' and no toilet...and 10kg bag..make sure u prepare a bed for me to sleep in for like 2 days to recover..lol!! @_@
mm..teaching caregroup tomorrow again..-_'' so tiring..
mm..had an interesting talk with Thomas this week..lol..
btw..belated bdae to Nat..and happy bdae today to darrell and bro..lol..to those taking N/O level tests soon..good luck guys..
and to ben and suqi : HURRY UP AND COME!! I CAN'T WAIT!!..LOL..
and my dear lynette..u havnt replied to me as to when you're going back to sg from gold coast..lol..
and as to joy and beck..i have had a wonderful and interesting talk with Brandon this week..hehe..secrets..hehe XD..i wonder who does Brandon like..mm..mm..lol!!!

lab rat?..etc..lol..

2006-09-25T05:33:00.000-07:00

Hm..kenneth and terence finally remembered by bdae..lol..so long alr..
went to the dentist today..and saw this poster which said that melb uni dental sci ppl were looking for 'lab rats' to test out this new cream to slow down tooth decay for ppl who wear braces..lol..wonder if i should go..
rewatched and still rewatching gundam seed...and seriously, frey/fllay alster seriously annoys me...cant stand her..shes so pampered..exactly like someone i noe...well..only one thing i can say to them: I DON'T CARE IF YOU ARE PAMPERED BY YOUR PARENTS..IF YOU ARE SO GOING TO BE SUCH A SPOILT BRAT..THEN GET OUT OF MY SIGHT!!
well..some ppl have been annoying me quite alot..so cant help it..have to let it out somewhere..if not i will seriously go insane..dont mind me..lol..
Paul has been watching SR and he says he doesnt like Tenma...bt i beg to differ..he doesnt like her because she's dumb.. but isnt SR a comedy?lol..Tenma in a way is funny, cos she comes up with really wierd ideas..and without her..i dun think that SR would be a nice anime..lol..o wells..will leave it to that at now..
*SR-school rumble

tnks guys..my bdae..lol

2006-09-20T05:59:00.000-07:00

I would like to thank Gary,pam and zandra, katt, janette, jingning, lynette and mebbe Gabriel for calling and msging me for my bdae..lol..i went to Pauls hse today..watched a bit of anime..and then played card games--terrorist..lol..we ate quite a lot..got really fat..lol..jkjk..
Paul..shuje..perri, joy, mannie, beck and keith..and jordan!!lol..they got me a pencil case, a pacer(mechanical pencil) and a coles myer gift card!!lol..tnks guys...had fun today i guess..cant talk much..lol.mum would kill me if i been on the com too long....

merciless??lol..

2006-09-16T07:01:00.000-07:00

I have been half-merciless today..lol..I was looking through my MSN list and deleted all those whom I did not talk to and do not think will talk to for the rest of my life?lol...I rarely see them on MSN anyway..so yeah..I have been half-merciless..so don't mind me..lols..
Had a september baby party today..It was alright..Nothing much really.. and tomorrows leng zai's birthday party..and on monday,VBS starts..lol..
Today during the party..Helena was like..hugging me so much..and she was like..can I take you home??and then Rick came and he was like..no...you can't take her..*lol*.. and Helena was like..why?? and Rick was like..she's my sister man..*lol*.. and then Helena was like..doesn't matter..I shall bring her home.. *-_-''* and then Rick was like..fine..you can have her..*thwack to Rick!!lol*
**--is what I think..lol.. (and btw..Rick is my "adopted" older brother..lol)
Was watching this video from Yahoo, called marimba ponies..it was about small kids playing the percussion..and it was really cute..lol..
Mm..was playing celebrity heads in Math on Friday.. and Fiona Cheng volunteered to be one of the people sitting down..than Mr Croft..*lol* went up and wrote something for her..and what did he write??--the cow from the sip-ah ad. LOL!!
--sip-ah ad-->how do you put an elephant into a beetle?and how do you put a giraffe into a refigerator? and now..instead of putting the flavour into the milk..we put it into the straw!! Now the straw has beads of flavour for you to drink from..so SIP---AHH.. *and the cows like at the background sipping the milk and saying sip--ah..lol!!
the whole class cracked up(laughed) at the name for her to guess..lol..
will blog another time soon..

lol..blogging more now..

2006-09-15T05:01:00.000-07:00

Lol...I'm actually blogging more now..Maybe it's because its holidays. 4 more days to Paul's house..lol..mm..I was reading this in Yahoo! news today..lol
The real bionic woman--Claudia Mitchell shows off the prosthetic arm that she controls with her thoughts.
Lol! At this rate, I woundn't be suprised if someone actually made Angelic Layer from a anime series to an actual game!!
For those who don't know..Angelic Layer is a anime series where people control dolls to fight in a arena called the layer. They control the dolls using their thoughts and those thoughts are generated into the doll's memory to fight..lol..
And I shall load the pictures from the music elective concert as well..lol
*rat dissection today was disgusting....do not want to talk more about it..lol* will blog other stuff soon..

a good picture of Angelic Layer, characters, dolls and the layers..

the church frens who came to my music elective concert :)

a dodgy picture of Jack(left hand side..) Kai and me at the music elective concert..lol..

subbing??

2006-09-14T03:58:00.000-07:00

Hm..rarely post that much these days..wahaha..1 more day till school ends...anyways..going to Paul's place on the 20th..and since there is no subbing for school rumble ep 1 and 2..I have to do it..ack!!lol..no help..from scratch..my own knowledge of jap..mm...lols..o wells..hope my frens don't mind my crappy subbings then..lol
Hm..Truman said hi today, amazingly..because I never talk to him..unless I need to..We were walking in the shopping centre (glen) and we were talking about our overall performance for the music elective concert..lol..and then we moved on to the topic of Naruto..because he said he like the solo song that me and Georgia did which was from Naruto--Morning..lol.. tnks..wehehehe.. anyways..we were like talking about Naruto and I was like..whoa..he must be like a fan for Naruto..but anyway..haha..Chloe hasnt gotten the thing for me yet..I think she forgotten.but o wells..wahaha...

few more days..

2006-09-13T04:06:00.000-07:00

Hahahaa!!lets see..its 1 more day till sch ends for term..6 more days till my birthday..and 12 more weeks to december..lol..mm..was thinking back abit..Joy gave me a death sentence from the duke of ed expedition..lol!!..was talking to Jasper..and he said he missed me..aww..so nice..haha...my childhood fren..havnt seen for like 2 years..haha..yeah..i miss him also..plus all the sg frens i have..lol..was talking to Thomas yesterday..and he said not to miss him so much..aww..thats nice as well..hehe..my friends are all so nice..I love them :) hehe..
Chloe said she'll get me something for my birthday..bt i doubt she'll remember..lols..
Ben and Beth..i'll leave you to do the stuff for band and things..hehe :)
Oh..that reminds me..Jasper...I remember I went to your house over the hols when we were just little kids..lol.. and had a sleepover..and then we were playing with the X-box was it?lol..with all the games in it..and I so owned you..haha...i was like just a rookie..and was just randomly playing..lol... !! :)
Having a party first period in Eng on fri..lol..and dissecting a rat in Science in the same day..mm...
Can't remember what I wanted to write already..haha..o wells..will leave it at that for now..

music elective concert..

2006-09-12T05:46:00.000-07:00

Yay!! it's finally over..thanks to Kai..James..Joel..the whole Lengkong family..Eva..Jackson..Jason..and mark??lol... cos they came and supported me..thanks to Gary and Janette as well..who msged me on the day..haha..I stuffed some songs up..bt i guess..its all over now..no use crying over spilt milk..lols..
Still online late..but o wells..Joel took some photos..will upload them when he gives it to me..haha..
o wells..shall go sleep now..hehe

back after a while..and freakyness

2006-09-07T00:49:00.000-07:00

It's been a while since I've been back to post..haha..loads of homework to finish and etc.. Especially camp and its log report I have to write up..finished the article..and maths homework..so that leaves music..lol..harddd..
Music elective concert is coming up next week, and friends are coming to watch..so I hope I will be able to play well..ehehe
Mark you idiot!!! hugging a girl(not me,*phew*lol..) that's already taken..Australia interaction between males and females..so wierd..
Calvin M came to my place to fix up my com..thanks..lol..its somehow working now..
1 more week till holidays..I'm already holiday mood..and theres still so much assignments to hand up..lol..My hols are gonna be filled up..Too much stuff to do..
Freakyness....mm..lemme tell u a story..lol!!! before I went to camp..Shane was sitting next to me..I didn't know him then..during class (Duke of Ed)..and he didn't know what to do for the computer..and he was like..hey..um..candel..what do we do? And i'm like..how in the world does he know my name!?!? and during camp..that wasn't that bad..cos if it weren't for him, I would have probably died.. I was slipping down a steep slope the wrong way--to the forest..and he grabbed my hand..bfore I slipped and fell..and he was one of the guys tt moved really fast over the logs in camp -_'' *during camp..while walking on the way--bushwalk..and he was talking to me..and he thought I was from Australia..funny..*lol.. Anyway..after camp..the first day back at school..teacher told us we had to write reports..and the teacher were showing us some pictures from camp..and he had the report..I went up to him and asked if I could look at him..and he was like..say please..and i was like pretty annoyed..cos i asked really nicely tho..bt anyway..i went along his way, and saw the report..and 2 days ago..I was walking in sch..back to home..and when he walked past me..he was like..hey..cya candel..and im like..what the..but i said bye anyway..and then..today during class..Joy and I were standing..Joy on left..I on right..and then..Shane walked past us..when he walked past us..he tapped my shoulder and said hey candel..and then I was like..uh..hi..
But it's freaky!!! arrghh..lol..wierrrddd
anyway..a camp pic from camp..lol..

interesting guy..

2006-08-30T23:47:00.000-07:00

There was this author who came to our school today. Markus Zusak.. from my point of view...his name sorts of sound old..and he does not sound aussie..But he is young(my guess around late 20ies) and is aussie!! -_-'' so wierd..he was telling us all sorts of pranks and other stuff he and his older brother did. It was pretty funny. Especially about the story with the revenge he took on his older brother. And interestingly, I reckon he had a different aura than the other people who came to our school to talk. Like..for me..it seemed that he was projecting an aura which was like very vibrant and cheeky, really different to those others who came to our school to talk. It was so different. We were laughing all the way during his talk because it was so funny.
Amazingly, back from camp, it seems like it's heaven now :) But there's still loads of assignments to do because we lost 2 days of school. But still a zombie..lols..I realised back from camp yesterday when I was bathing that I had 2 leech bites and I didn't know..It was bleeding.. -_'' O wells...

back from camp

2006-08-30T02:43:00.000-07:00

Finally!! back from camp.It's the best thing ever..Back from hell.. Treacherous terrain..leeches..mud..tree logs to climb over and go under..dangerous creek crossings.. My legs..ribs..collarbone..shoulders hurt like hell now..carrying a 10 kg bag for 4 hrs...a day!! Nearly killed myself during this camp..and it's just a training camp!!.. !@#@! .. the guys were like practically flying over everything..moving so fast..and i'm like dying..Shane helped me to climb over this thingalabob where i nearly fell and killed myself..and Ms Chapman and Mr Nicastro had to help me with other tree logs and stuff as well..so that I don't slip and kill myself because I was tripping alot..and therefore..was in the last party so as not to delay other people..lol. Reached camp..no toilet!!! !@#@! had to do stuff in bushes where guys tried to respect i hope our privacy and didn't come looking for us.. Was cooking dinner at night..saw a possum..and a bush mouse..so cute!! but o wells..At night..was cold..heard a couple of birds still talking..and i think there was a possum walking around the tents...
That reminds me..I still have to write an article for Duke of Ed.. o wells..shall do that during the weekend..and sleep early during the weekend as well so that I don't become a zombie..shall sleep soon..

going to be a tiring week-zombie

2006-08-28T02:19:00.000-07:00

Having duke of ed camp tommorrow and it's going to be interesting. This person called Professor Richmond Elmore came to our school today and seriously, he talks like a very sophisticated person..Hm..camp..we took like 2 hours to pack our 9-10 kg bag. Have to write a journal about it as an assesment..and have to write an article about it for the school magazine..Oh wells, can't remember what else to write..Haha..Oh!! I saw Mark today, called him, and he didn't reply because I think he thought I was calling someone else..He didn't reply until I actually called him "baka"..lol..O wells..I think that's all I can remember now.. :)

*baka-stupid

an annoying girl..

2006-08-23T02:06:00.000-07:00

Today school was alright..there was this girl who was really annoying..a friend of mine tried to get back at her by slamming her locker..twice??lols..mm..cos he was saying she was annoying him to the limit and that he couldn't take it anymore..mm..o wells..they are gonna go online on a day to tell her to !@#@! off...but o wells...I can't be stuffed..lols..I'm not really one to take a grudge..so yeah..lols
Today...two people tried to attack me a few times in a row...especially during PE class...lols.. *glares at Mr Croft and Mr Christiansz..lol* ..mm..that reminds me..Mr Croft and I were playing snap Shuje's way during once in english lesson..and we went on like for 10 mins..cos none of us were budging and not paying attention..lols.. anyways...i wanted to "overthrow" my attackers..but the teacher scolded them first for trying to attack me first..haha..it was 2 on 1..mm..lols..
Duke of ed camp..next week...so don't wanna go..lols..camping in the bush..mmm....

a short late night post..

2006-08-17T06:22:00.000-07:00

Mm..just came back from a seminar and I'm so dead tired..tommorrow..I have a music rhythmic dictation and intervals test, supposed to teach a group of people..lols..busy tommorrow..Been busy this week..till I totally forgot there was a seminar on today..mm..Electives for next year-- VCE (college) chinese 2nd language advanced..biotech..and VCD A--graphic design..
That stupid Mark..he was bagging my weight..gave him a playful punch..lols..and then..he, Chloe and Kai bagged my height!! Kai!! I never knew he could be so cheeky..lol..he's always so quiet..and I never talk to him unless I need help in P.E class..mm..lols..but o wells, that led me to view Kai in a different light..lols..
I lost my drawing kit!! arrgghh..can never draw without them..its like Inui from PoT without his glasses.. its like..the drawing kit//anime..haha.. is my life..lols.. Haiz..gotta go get a new drawing kit soon I guess..
o wells..this was supposed to be a short post anyway..haha..will post soon..hopefully..lols..

another stupid convo..this time..with shuje..

2006-08-15T02:03:00.000-07:00

Hm..currently listen to "In the End" by linkin park..really nice..hehe..
Just remebered I had another stupid convo and wanted to share to whoever was actually reading my blog..so yeah..have fun reading..haha :)

Shuje: candel
Candel: lol....its programming.. -_-''
Shuje: mwahaaaaahhahahahah
Candel: what the heck..lol..anyway..good luck to us for prog..lol
Shuje: lols..like my pic?on desktop for intranet
Candel: lol..prog..and were chatting
Shuje: lols
Candel: have fun..hahaha
Shuje: candel....crab has lost a pincer..or is it a ghost?
Candel: shaddup..i added a pincer now..dun bagg my poor crab..haha..
Shuje: mentally troubled crab
and some other things happened in there..we sorta argued..but anyway..I shall jump to another part that we were talking in there..haha..
Shuje: crabs fly?
Candel: what the heck..first thing..it is not a crab..it is a thing learning how to be a crab..
Shuje: so it can fly?
Candel: dunno..cant be stuffed knowin..i did my work..and tts all i need to care..lol..the teacher was freaky..
Shuje: lol..
End..lol..hope u enjoyed it..wahaha..

duke of ed phy rec requirement?

2006-08-12T00:46:00.000-07:00

Had badminton today becuase we had to fufill the duke of ed physical recreation requirement..We were going okay..until..the terrors had to come and had to insist on playing.. ^&*(*&^#!@.. can't they wait till we've finished playing?? They can play whenever when they want..but we can't..because we are doing badminton together..and they just had to insist on playing..Plus 2 terrors..we have 5 people..playing on like 40 x 40 square(x4)?? there just simply not enough space!! besides...their skills are like crap..one terror likes to play tennis style *wth!!* and the other terror justs complain and nag the whole day long.. And they have not done what they had to..-*practice cello* and none of them wanted to give way..and therefore..if one didn't want to give way..the other had to..if not parents would kill us..and so I had to give up my time.. !#$%$#$..and the requirement for it was like 3 hrs!! as if I'm actually going to find the time to play becuase there are loads of projects to do.. damn..off to dinner..

a stupid convo with Zahran

2006-08-05T06:39:00.000-07:00

That reminded me..I had this conversation on school mail once with Zahran because class was too boring..haha..this is how it goes..its funny..

Candel: heys..do u think tt anushkes a perv..
Zahran: lol, are you into me or somethin? lol, haha
Candel: what the heck..lol..im just askin if u think hes a perv..cos i think hes a big scale one..hope u dun mind if i dragged u into this stupid convo all bcos of anushke..lol
Zahran: lol, nah its all good, as long as you don't want me or anything lol, know what i mean, ;) i mean, i know i'm unusually attractive for a young guy of my age but, you know...lol it'd be a tad bit strange
Candel: lol..what the heck..u sound like one of those guys now..lol.. -_-''..btw..tell anushkes hes a perv..
Zahran: no, i think i'm a bit more sexy than them, lol haha ;)
Candel: lol..are u tryin to promote urself here!?!?lol..dun doo it here..tell anuhke..hahaha
Zahran: lol, admit it candel, i am sizzling! lol, haha
Candel: lol..dun tell me ure another sicko..haha..lol.sorry for harsh words..haha..cant think of anything nicer..haha
Zahran: you want somethin nice, stare at my gorgeous face, lol, seriously, staaaarrrreeeee...
Candel: what the heck..lol..dun promote urself to me..do it to anushke..hes goona be very interested
Zahran: as will you once your eyes meet my gorgeous face...the MASK is comin off baby! lol jkjk
Candel: -_-'' noooo..anushke!! its all your fault..dun promote here!!promote to him..

and that was how it ends..hope u find it funny..lols..

chinese reform church and etc

2006-08-05T06:14:00.000-07:00

Today went to chinese reform church's youth sports day..Played badminton becuase the rest of the sports were either soccer *yuck!!* or basketball *too much guys..*..We did not play much because a friend's brother was sulking away when we asked them if we could use the court..so we had to give way to them..riiittte...some church they are..we are guests..mm..had dinner there..same thing happened..no one cares about the guests..they all just choing for the food..I don't mind if they are kids..but they are YOUTH!!! Met Cheng..he's an interesting one..Kenneth..know him only by his name..Jordan..he's fun to play with..but um..mmm..lols..Eric was annoying..and there was this dude--couldn't get his name..don't ask why..lol..he doesn't talk..mm..as in literally..not as in..he does not talk talk..but yeah..lol..and Boon..very friendly guy..may be because he's a carer..mm..and this guy who looks like Vincent Lengkong..his parents from Sg..but his ABC..he went to my school for like one year..but transferred..but his brother is in our school now. :) We annoyed the guy that looks like Vincent and Boon while they were driving us back home..and as well as Cheng when he brought us there..Met like 2 girls?but cannot remember their name..lols..
But don't worry..I still love my friends and brothers../sisters.. in church--Rick..couldn't talk to you becuase you were busy today..mm.. Didn't see Sus..and Flozz wasn't there.. *sobsob* and of course I still love my band family..eg..Sherlynn..Fhairil, Suqi, Ben, Evelyn,Fhaizmel, Yao Zhun etc etc..lol..congrats to Fhaiz to being BM :) and of course I didn't forget my other friends..eg..Lynette..Weifeng, Jingning..Thomas..Mark..David Chai.. also people from axe house..Jeremiah..Josiah..and my relatives, family..etc etc..many more..lols.. :)
Love you all.. :) *hugs hugs*

small load of thankies and worries

2006-08-04T07:01:00.000-07:00

mm..shall start with the worries..lols..have to finish my assignments, choose electives for next year and finally survive the week!!lols..many bad stuff happened on and off..so yeah..mm..congrats to gab wong..who finally opened glenny manga associations..wahaha..
And for the thankies..thanks to..Mark..u 'racist boy'..lol..jkjk....but you made my week livelier..haha..I usually scold you for sleeping late..but this week, you scolded me instead because I was sleeping late..But I was happy :) thankies..And to David Chai..who ruffled my hair like a little girl..grrr..but it was fun..to Paul, whom I kill and get killed by..ahaha..tnks..to Lynette..although it was your birthday, but I got to talk to you..and it made my week more fun..to Weifeng..although you called me an idiot, you idiot..haha..my old archenemy..jkjk..haha..tnks..and to Jingning as well :) and may be to some others..if I have forgotten..mm..I don't know..lols..
Well..shall stop here..will get the picture up hopefully soon..wahaha.. :)

trying..

2006-07-23T01:13:00.000-07:00

trying..trying to put the stupid picture that I drew up here..didnt mean the picture was stupid..but the loading..wahaha...damn..it won't work..."A" terror is here..spying on everything that I blog in here...these few days have been reading some hinamanga--naruto doujinshi's..really funny and cute..hehe...good anime pics come from www.animegalleries.net ..my recommendation..haha.. Anime seems to be the only thing that keeps my spirits up these days..people are trying to push my buttons.. ~_~.. I am trying to be so nice....and they just provoke me..I really should burst it..shouldn't I? But o well..I am but an emotionless freak..so who cares...

*naruto and hinata(naruhina)..sasuke and hinata(sasuhina)..which one?!!?haha...hinata rocks..she would be good with anyone..except lee,chouji and shino..wahaha..shino freaks me out a bit..lee is just for sakura..muahaha...and chouji can just eat his well liked chips..muahaha...and konoha is no doubt the best village..haha...
*too bad for bleach...bleach is having fillers..not that good now..to me..naruto's fillers seems better..mmm....

majorly pissed off..

2006-07-18T03:43:00.000-07:00

Pissed off..because the stupid blogger would not load the pictures, had that !#$~@@! sheperd today..She gave us so much damn homework..and had Mr Thiagu for english..starting to dislike him..does not know how to teach..seriously..and then..came from from school,at home, had to listen to someone bitching at it..won't give names..but seriously!?!?!!! GIVE ME A BREAK!! Majorly pissed off now..moral of the story? Never go home too early..stay out more..and change the answers for that stupid school survey of what we think of the teachers..
And for crying out loud...I DO know what my limits are..and someone is trying to teach me how the heck to live my life..as if that person wants to control my life.. I am different..I am not like you, and I can't be you.I can think for myself..
And guess what, ever since I came here..other than church friends..I have never made a single good friend..All the friends I have..they are not there permanently, they look like they are, but in reality, they are not..its like..when you are happy..they are like..oh..cool..and when you are sad..they are like..who cares...unlike the friends I had in the past..who stayed with me through thick and thin..well..as they say, nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you might as well be happy. I am on the way to being an emotionless freak...

a minute..

2006-07-17T01:21:00.000-07:00

Hm..just decided to put this picture up for no reason..did it in english class..because the new teacher we have is soo crappy..o wells..
i like my own drawings :) don't bag my drawings :)
*so slow to upload the pic..haiz..
i think the coms screwed..o well..will post it up next time.
ja..

screw health teacher..

2006-07-13T03:42:00.000-07:00

Screw ms sheperd!! reports just came back and I got all B+'s for home economics. Well, I don't really mind if I do get a B+ for cooking..but for theory!?!? Some of the people in my class did more than the others in class, but guess what? They got lower marks than the people who did lesser work(including me..who got lesser marks..) Oh..and she was saying..trying ur best goes a long way in my eyes.. SUCH A LIAR!!! I so hate her..never mention her name in my face..If not I will seriously kill you.. And she gives like the lamest work ever..She gave us this work for this week--find a photo of a person you admire.. *What the heck is this homework for??that is soo lame..*
Hm..maths test tomorrow..heard it can also be determined if you can do specialist maths in yr 11(college)..for maths methods..you have to get A+'s..how in the world am I supposed to get that type of grade when I want to do maths methods?!?! Arghhh..
Learnt a bit of first aid in Duke of ed today..really interesting..had fun..haha..
Oh wells..off to study for maths and to look for the picture..Haiz.. *Damn!!*

blogging..

2006-07-12T02:14:00.000-07:00

Hm..blogging after a while..so much work to do..so little time to finish them off, that's why I will probably blog less during school period..lol..Hm..very proud of myslef today, because I walked home myself during winter after 6--the sun had set. Lol..It might be just me, but I'm proud of myself because Australia has sooo much less streetlights than Singapore and it just makes me feel wierd, and I would never dare to walk home by myself and even with people, I would be tense..And today I walked home feeling quite alright..haha
Played with some science cd rom today, really fun--biology(digestive and circulatory system). Haha..Teachers are the same, just bombard work..
Anyways..off to study..

Big thanks...

2006-07-03T02:43:00.000-07:00

Been reading the comments..and looking back at my blog, I realised that my blog has been very depressing..Lol..Hm..my mum has been very unreasonable today..Haiz..Oh well..Well, the only positive thing I can say is that school is alright so far, without having a single lesson with shepard yet..lols..Had a bludge class because there was no such room as MU5 as said in our timetables, so we spent the time on the computer and looking through the duke of edinburgh sites..Lol..
*Duke of edinburgh is a very expensive course!! X_X
A friend of mine today dyed his hair and he looked very different to what he usually looks like.. Haha.. Fhairil's birthday was yesterday!..Msged him..and I hope he got my message..lols..If not, fhairil!! happy birthday!!
Hm..these few days..have been talking to people, people who I usually talk to, and people whom I don't usually talk to. Some were very nice..some were annoying..haha..shall not pinpoint them out..
But I would really like to thank Lynette, Jasper, Rick, Alex, Benjamin, Sus..and some others for talking to me somewhere this week because it somehow cheered me up for one thing or the other :)
*Jasper, thanks alot for everything :)..although I don't post anything on your blog..~cheering you on~..you better come to aus to visit us..muahaha ^_^

blogging with the "terrors" beside..

2006-07-01T04:49:00.000-07:00

Hm..I've been reading the comments..and I would have to say, Jireh..u give really sadistic comments..and as the answer to Jasper's question, the friends that are coming are my dear band friends, Benjamin and Suqi..u wouldn't know them..but it would be good if you could come as well..haha.. Well, I looked at my timetable for the upcoming semesters, and guess what.. I just had to have that MS SHEPARD who I really do not like, and it's for the subject HEALTH!! what the **** is this!!?!?.. Hm..other than that, I just hope I have good teachers for the rest of the subjects..and MARK!! You stole my line!!!..haha..jokingjoking..
Hm..I will be doing music group performance, advanced chinese and Duke of Edinburgh award the next semester..and I just hope I will enjoy it..Haha.. I had advanced chinese, Music composition and Technology and Programming last semester and it was pretty interesting because we slacked in those classes..haha..
O well..off to chill before the school starts..NOOOO!!!!!!..hahaha..

holidays: nooo!!

2006-06-29T00:09:00.000-07:00

Holidays are going to end and it's probably going to be the last post until the school restarts. When it finally feels like a holiday, the holidays end.Haiz..
Being the older child is SO FRUSTRATING!!! seriously. Who likes being bullied by your younger siblings? And then later getting all the blame because of your younger siblings and you have not done a thing!!?!? And then, who gets pampered and still complains of not having enough of what they want!?!? Arghh..is this how younger siblings are becoming these days!??!. Not even having respect for their older siblings!!!
Holidays are ending, school is restarting, my life is going down again...It will probably be a while before my life goes up..My life..so sad...has more downs than ups..Haiz.. *sobsob*..Lol..
Well..here are some drawings I made in somewhere in the time I have from long long time ago..haha, and whoever is actually reading my blog, please enjoy them, although they aren't as good as the *original drawings*..I did more..but too lazy to put them up here :)
-back to my sad sad life..-

kurosaki and rukia animated..

and my favourite character of all times:Kuchiki rukia!! :)

naruto:sasuhina

2006-06-27T18:12:00.000-07:00

I was looking around the net and couldn't comprehend how people would like blogging and blog a few days in a row..Haha..But other than that, I was surfing around and to my astonishment there were people who though that sasuke and hinata should go together..Haha.It's not a bad idea though, because they look so cute together. Naruto and hinata looks good as well, but I guess sasuke and hinata is better :) Go sasuhina!! Haha.. Anyways, those in sg doing O'levels this year..Hurry up and finish your O'levels and come over!! Can't wait for you guys to come..Hehe..
sasuke and hinata story strip..Very cute..hehe..

Sasuhina!!! Hehe..

naruto and hinata.. :)

watching animated tennis

2006-06-24T01:31:00.000-07:00

Prince of tennis (Seigaku tennis club) *the best!hehe..

Hm..these few weeks, people have been watching the world cup, but, --- I.....have been watching...animated tennis!!! Muahahaha!! Prince of Tennis, some of you might know..haha..its so nice to watch..haha..especially the very animated ones. Holidays..starting to feel like it..haha.. So nice..haha..off to chill..hehe
Blogging soon..hehe

Echizen ryoma..the main character..

Fuji syuusuke.. the prodigy..

Fuji.. * so cute..nya.. :) *

so full..physically

2006-06-18T02:53:00.000-07:00

I am sooo fullll...Very full. Ate at Sophia's today, and believe me, the servings are very big. I had a kids menu order and it looked like an entree. My mum had a flounder dish and she had a whole flounder.. And I couldn't believe that we still had to eat dessert after that. -_-'' The small gelato had like 5 flavours in it and it looked like a mountain.. I would love to have taken a photo and publish it in here, but I forgot to bring my camera..-_-''
I so need to burn off calories tomorrow, because for the past few days, I have been eating at restaurants. Lol..My mum's friend said I was lucky to have a high metabollism rate, but I don't think so. Only my dad and older brother have a high metabollism rate.. I would love to have a high metabollism rate though..haha
I'm off to rest my stomach and off to get ready to burn some calories off tomorrow..haha..

Holidays!!

2006-06-17T06:05:00.000-07:00

It's finally the holidays..haha..How long have I waited for this!?!? It's Jasper's birthday in 2 days, Joel's birthday was yesterday..Happy birthday to both :)
I went to a friend's house today, and we played terrorist..It was fun.
It's sad how someone does not trust you, especially when they are close to you (e.g. family, friends) and it is also very irritating..
Many things also happened in the last few days, couldn't remember..Haha.. I have a coughing thing now..haha..coughing alot now..
Anyways, got to go and eat my ramen now..haha..will blog soon hopefully :)

My ramen!!! :)

finally free!!

2006-06-11T04:08:00.000-07:00

I'm finally free of exams!! yay...but still isnt holidays..haiz..yay...the computer person finally went somewhere else..so relieved..haha..The days have been alright..haha..Nothing much to say about it..
Oh..that reminds me..I think someone tried to hit on me today >_<..that was soo wierd..I was at the lift somewhere..and opposite it there was this window thingy and outside the window thingy..below there was a balcony or something and there was this guy who was doing wierd hand signs..apparently my sister said that the guy had a call sign or something.. >_<..that's the wierdest thing.. -_-'' Tomorrow's the queens birthday..so i have a holiday..yay!! Hm..I just remebered..went to Michaelangelo's to eat..very full..haha..I hope if I have to go to my mums friends place again..I won't have to meet that wierd guy.. >_<
*otoko wa suge baka.. -_-''

Yay!!

2006-06-05T23:13:00.000-07:00

yay!!I finally finished most of my tests today..had 3..which were maths, science and home economics. I so hate the hm ec teacher..she only told us we had a test 5 min before class. O wells...Hm..i have a free day on thursday..no school..hahaha..going to Joy's house..hehe..Joy better be prepared..haha..One more week till holidays..Haiz..I just hope there will be no con ed test..that will be the worst thing...
The teacher I would like most to be fired : Ms Shepard (don't even know how to spell her name..lols) and the guy in charge of cleaning from last year: Mr Popoff or smth..lol
Those two people are the worst people in the world you can ever have. They don't listen to anything you have to say, you have to do it their way, they are unreasonable--like my sister -_-'' O wells...What a sad life I have..lols..

me, exams, other stuff

2006-06-04T04:16:00.000-07:00

I hate it when people say they know you, but they dun't know you at all?..Its like my family dosen't know me at all either. All they do is just yell at me and blame me fo everything that my siblings do. Its hard enough with exams bothering me, and that "someone" using my computer time..and all these other stuff just keeps coming. I am pissed off with another "person". I did my share of work and she expects me to do extra because she can't do it as she doesnt understand the work we were supposed to do. And she is sooo money minded, Just because the party is for two people and she only wants to pay for one, and expects the other half of the money back and keeps annoying me to give her back the other half. Other people are nicer than her in that aspect. She knows that that annoys me, she apologises, but she still does it anyway. That justs annoys me. She shouldn't apologise and do the same thing again. That justs annoys me more than her annoying me and she not knowing about it. Although she thinks I'm one of her good friends, but no thanks. I would seriously be a loner in school than have a friend like her.
Haiz..finger still hurts abit, still got loads of exams to get through..and then holidays where I can actually finally relax, watch anime dvds, "read itcha itcha paradise", eat ramen and read manga.
Haiz, its like one week more before I am free, but it looks like a tortourous week..must get through this week..haiz.. -_-'' *Torture...

my updates..

2006-06-03T07:41:00.000-07:00

Haha..blogging after a few days. These few days was alrite..I hoped i pass my maths paper 1 though..haha..My sprained finger is now better thanks to Mike who helped me massage it. Its like 1/2 of the blueblacks gone now. I'll start studying hard again on sunday because I won't have enough time for monday to study >_<. Hotmail is the suckiest email you can have now. I can't even read my messages or delete it. I have to go in like 15 times before it actually works. Camp dvd this year was dissapointing. They cut out alot of the fun parts and had alot of the boring parts in it. Aarrrgghh..o well..I shall start studying and hope to blog soon..haha..

computer person..

2006-05-31T03:59:00.000-07:00

As usual, came back from school today, somehow before that went to the glen and were looking for part time jobs. Lol! Anyways, I came home and "someone" was using the computer, and believe it, that "someone" is more of a computer person than me!! He uses it like 24/7 and I rarely get to use the computer now...And its like its the time where report writing day is coming up and loads of presentations, homework and assignments are due.. That is the saddest thing ever. I don't mind him using it for like 4 hours a day, but it seems that the person who is on the computer less than 4 hrs a day is me, and I use it like 1 hr nowadays..and the rest of the 24 hrs, that "someone" would be using it..Haiz..
Head hurts now, finger's still blueblack..should I go to the doctors tomorrow??..O wells..

Impression of life..

2006-05-29T23:39:00.000-07:00

I was walking back from school today and there was a car accident(saw many ambulances making noises..). I think it was a car accident anyway, but there were some causalties and the traffic was being held up. As I saw paramedics carrying injured people onto the ambulance, that made me think of what the injured people would be thinking about. My first impression was that the injured people would be fighting hard to stay alive as they do not want to die, that is true,isn't it?Or is it just me. And that just made me think of other people. Why are there people who want to kill themselves when there are people fighting hard to stay alive?. It just gave me a new impression of how important lives are.
Thinking about that, I felt helpless as I knew I couldn't do anything for any party, but that gave me a big inspiration to study really hard to get to my ambition-veterinarian as I want to help save and improve lives or pets, but that might change to a medical profession or something in the future, but for now, I am just contented to know that I have to study really hard in order to get to a profession where I can help people and pets.. :)

Girls Vs Guys

2006-05-29T01:22:00.000-07:00

I was just reminded today about how each girl and guy acts. Like their side of argument and their nature and etc. I rememebered about this workshop I went to and it really supports the saying of guys are from mars, women from venus. Its like the opinions are 2 totally different and wierd answers. But shouldn't talk about this..haha.
My day was fine..saturday and sunday this week felt the best, it felt like a long holiday and I was refreshed. Although there are exams coming up, but my life seems so good now, compared to the crappy week I had..haha..
Todays programming class was the best as the teacher was absent, so we got like a whole bludge class. We were like emailing stuff around and my face was red as I tried to keep my chuckles in while reading the nonsenical letter. I shan't elaborate the letter as I think it would be really wierd..
That's all for now...

The crappiest week I've ever had

2006-05-27T20:30:00.000-07:00

The crappiest week I've ever had and you will hear. I've lost it alot of times this week, embarrasing to say..On monday..I had to organise parties and people didn't want to cooperate and gave me a really hard time..and in programming class..I did my project work like 3/4 of it, and forgot to save it, and the computer just had to reboot and after school when i was walking back to my locker bay,it was raining.., some guys were playing on the gutter on top of the locker bay and the whole gutter had to pour on me. I was like soaked as in in chinese *luo tang ji*. On tuesday, I lost my headphones in school. On wednesday, I sprained my finger in pe playing touch rugby while ripping a tag of someone.*Its blueblack now* On thursday, just had too much work to do, slept late. On friday. michael told us he was leaving for taiwan to do NS and he'll probably stay there for good afterwards. He told us on the day he was leaving, so our caregrp postponed our meeting and we all sent him to the airport..so sad..and the week before that, some guys were chucking dirt..one hit me on the chest..and they didn't apologize. What's this world coming to....
*picture: michael, the guy in white, me and gary at the airport sending him off.

first post

2006-05-27T20:19:00.000-07:00

My first post..Wahaha...Interesting. Well..I've really got nothing to say. Just that this bloggings that i do might have any sad weeks and that you'll bear with it when reading the blog..haha..

Yoroshiku onegaishimasu :)
*pleased to be working with you in jap :)